话，变少了……
泪，变多了……

开心，变少了……
烦恼，变多了……

我想问从前的我到哪里去了……
他是否不要我了……
我看事情似乎执着了……
停下来呼吸，开始怀念过去……
面对未知的未来，我害怕……

An ordinary day with an extraordinary thought

starting a new life isnt that easy..somehow,i had gone through the first stage(hopeless and helpless stage) thanks to all the new friends~they do help me a lot...education and advices..everyday i enjoys all the lessons in school...trying my best to catch up all the homework..meeting new people told me that..human got their own personality..this is the thing that we couldnt change...even though there are gossip flying around in the class but thn,this is the way they show their love and caring to each other..^^i guess...haha...this year is an unfortunate year for me...everything comes new and bad things happened one by one, i am trying my best to fight against all the bad things,sometimes i just hope that the world could stop for 30 minutes for me and i just can release all my stress in that golden time..my bad attitude is i choose to cry to release all my sadness and stress,dunknw since whn..i turn to be a ''ham bao''...sometimes i just like to think that whn cn i escape from here,i wana see the world...but thn,i found out that i was acting like a kid,escaping everything i am nt willing to face it..so i have to be more mature,everything just think it deeply and try to not think too much...i wonder why women have to be that complicate..even myself i have no idea,everytimes i convince myself to be generous,everything will be fine..at first i am not fine,i cried and cried and cried,but after couple of weeks...i stop crying anymore,i choose to trust you,or maybe i just listened what my friend said,we have to ''tai hoi dit'' he is right,i cant stop ur social life,or u stop my social life..maybe i just lake of confident after seen a lot of fact,people said that scropion likes to hide their weakness and real feeling...hard shell is to protect themselves,but inside it,they are soft..and weak...so start frm now,i wana train to be a strong and independent scropio! =)

【兔年贺礼】 我的赖皮女友

8-05-2011 Mother's Day

Today is the big day for every mothers.Happy Mother's Day!!! No matter how far she is...being her daughter/son, we still wanna tell her,mum,thank u for bringing me to this world.Eventhough this is a cruel and bloody world...but,ur love taught us not to be afraid,because i know there is someone looking at us..she is accompany us to grow up,she is the one kick all the demands out of our world..she works for our future..i'm glad to be your little daughter mom,though you are far from me..and i never celebrate mother's day with you once...i'm so sorry.At 6th of may's night,i heard my mum said a word that touched my heart so much,i told her my plan for my future and said ''Happy Mother's Day'' to her,she was so happy..she laughed..i had been long time didn't hear she laugh..besides,she said that''yeng,i love you so much,all your message that you sent i had read it all,glad to have you this daughter'' ^u^ thats my best gift in this half year..truely,i am very happy..Besides,there is someone i have to thanks in this special day too..she look after my sis and i since we born...i saw her hair turn to white and dye it back to black,her body getting thin and thin,her memory getting less..but her voice and her theory still that strong..yea~thats my grandma~yesterday,i helped my cousin to ordered flowers to her mum,after i ordered,i bought 1 stalk for popo too~ people ordered 12 stalks,i bought 1 stalk..i chose pink colour for popo..it represent her kindness,patient and love...and the 1 stalk of pink flower is the only one in the world just for her..^^ she smiled..and...for sure she is happy even today she still mentioning the flower~^^ she said this is the 1st flower that she received...>.< well,next year you get your second 1 po~^^ i bought flower to popo captured it sent the photo to mummy...smart~haha...XD...mum is the best woman in the world..hope that you will appreciate her..eventhough she leaved you,but she will stay in your heart forever..she will look after you at the other side..belief in god..for what He had planned for you^u^

5-5-2011

it is the 5th day in this month..seriously,i hate this month..why? i cries everyday in this month,2nd of may,that was the day i received a bad news about my education..i cant enter form 6..it really shocked me,form 6 is the last path for me actually..once i click the button ''checked'' there show me ''minta maaf,nama anda tidak dalam senarai'' that was a dull and gloomy evening..that night,it was the night i went out with my students,i hided all my sadness and enjoyed that night..but then,i accidentally fetched ''something'' though i cant felt and saw it...it still very bad for me..>.<,in these 5 days,i tried many ways to find my path to find my future..it very hard to me..cause all my plan was ruined..everything banned..i cried again and again..even cried accidentally in mr chung office while pronciple and ms ng were there..i cant stop the feeling..i cant study if my sis fail to enter maktab..these words floating in my mind.At last,i have to walk a different road..i decided to work at bank for a year,gain some money and continue my further study next year,though my dream is getting far with me,but i had tried to be a assistant tuition teacher,and i had learnt a lot from there,meeting new people taught me to become more humble,teaching student taught me to be responsible,experiences taught me to grow up..i hope my decision was not wrong,''The Road Not Taken'' thats what i have to do,tears didnt drop after today,because my eyes getting hurt and there is no tears to fall again..besides,i am glad that there is a man always stand by me,accompany me..he advice me not to choose a wrong decision,be clear with your option....he will support me no matter what decision i made,Thank You,thats the only words i can said..last but not least,i wish there is a bright and better day is waiting for me every morning once i open my eyes~

Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One

Girl vs Boy

it is first day of may..and i have been experienced a lot of things though the day hasnt ended yet.I had discovered that girls really a small gas animal..so am i...but why? boys..do you know? stop annoying on your girl's weird mood and start thinking what had you done..it might a word or an action that u had done or said..you hurt her..there is no such girl which never care or mind his boy find or chee chatt with other girls..girls will always said..nevermind,its ok and add a big smile =) at the back..but in their little heart,they are bleeding..they keep asking themselves,dun think too much..everything will be fine..but suffering with this kind of emotion is driving them to the word ''crazy''..''i care about you,thats why i am so jealousy..i love you..thats why i turn to become a small gas woman'' girls do everything and anything for boys,do you ever think back,what profit actually they get?? If you were fortunate,you might get his true heart as reward,but what if he is a bad guy?? well,there is nothing you can get beside than getting HURT..love is dangerous, to meet a good guy at the same time isn't that easy...how you know she/he is the one you are searching? i don't know either..i think thats the danger part of the relationship..but then,why should we think all of these?? the sight from another angle,love is warmth,sweet and happy..because you are not alone,there will be a guy always right beside you,accompany you..though he is not around you all the time..but your heart is connected with him...when you cry,he will try his best to make you laugh..a word''soh zhu'' will straight away melt your heart and touched..tears are coming out because you are regret,why you will mad on this ''soh lao''? and he is inclusive you all the time...girls...appreciate a guy who willing to make you smile and inclusive you...guys..hold tight your girl and please don't hurt her anymore..i hope my tears drop is because i'm touched but not hurt..